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Gaya mentioned Ken McLeod which prompted a bit of websurfing and a listen to a lecture he gave at Kannonji in SL:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXCT0HyqNAU (there are also some reflections on SL as a teaching medium -- http://musingsbyken.blogspot.com/200...fe-take-2.html )

One story struck me in particular:  a student felt it difficult to take in suffering, and the teacher's reply was, "if you really could take away all the pain of the world with one breath, would you hesitate?"  An acknowledgement of a deep desire that we've turned away from -- for me, this is the the power of lojong. 

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It's funny how the best meditation advice for me is still the most basic -- variants of don't do anything, stop, allow, etc.  (in our last meeting, Zen and Calvino made a related point about dropping ideas about possible meanings, Katherine about giving up hope).  "When practicing unconditional acceptance, start with yourself" feels like part of this instruction and it's surprising how often I go against it throughout the day -- "should be more like this, wow that was awful/great, how am I ever going to figure out ..."  I seem to be able to find these in any given 2 second stretch.  It can feel like a big risk to let go of that futzing, to just stand there unadorned with little efforts. I always seem to want something "fixed" before allowing myself to participate -- weirdly, before accepting compassion.