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  # When practicing unconditional acceptance, start with yourself. 

I found that I didn't really want to pay attention to this one... wanted to skip to the next and write pages about that, but not see this one. Finally, noticed and asked myself why.

Maybe it comes with the territory of taking personal responsibility, but it is hard to accept oneself, especially when you see all the ways you might have handled things in life differently, or people you have injured/are injuring. When you see mistakes you've made, it is easy to be discouraged... "All that work and that's what I came up with/that is how I handled that?" etc.

To share something a bit personal, this week I found myself wrestling ever so slightly, with my relationship with my mother... feeling judgementalism and a sense of loss, when I had the thought "What if she was a friend telling me a similar 'story', or my sister?" I realized that if she were just someone not 'she in relation to me', I would listen more easily and possibly have much greater/softer understanding. That brought in a lot of space.

So, looking at this aphorism, I did the same thing for myself. I didn't base compassion on how circumstances conspired or some sense of weakness, but looked at myself as simply someone.   

  # When everything goes wrong, treat disaster as a way to wake up. 

  # Take all the blame yourself.