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Having come to some level of ability to be in the midst of chaotic environments and center, I begin to feel as though chaotic and peaceful environments are much the same, with the larger part of what qualifies as 'distractions' being the internal pointings and dialogs, the level of which isn't really affected by what is going on 'around'.    

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When travelling I actually find myself able to better concentrate. There are many distractions but they aren't 'my' distractions, whereas at 'home' there is a sense of obligation to respond, and on top of that a sense (not always appropriate but necessary to measure, adjust, and refine) of wanting validation/response to my response, to those obligations. :)

The word that arises over and over again is _Integration_, in the sense of resting in letting lower-order matters take care of themselves, and I focusing in on what has the strongest resonance.

Strangely, this goes back to a hierarchy of desires, too. By not grasping at stories and dreams and possessions and fears, there arises a clarity of heart desire which hm, generates its own awareness which isn't my awareness/your awareness but a unifying and trustworthy connection/interconnection, etc.