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Stim Morane: there are many pressures to live an a disconnected way, Yes, Mick
but these are just moves on a game board/they don't literally "force" us to follow/we just play along, when we don't need to

Dao wrote: ** Preliminary notes:  Stim is asking for a 7 day report on the day of and the week following Thanksgiving **

Saturday - was a general pattern of hiding in little pockets I make for myself, on many weekends when the whole family is together. We operate less like a group than we did when the children were younger.

Sunday - a very full day, but feeling a sense of exposure on a few levels... experiencing some of the 'contracting' we taked about a few weeks ago during the open session. Took down some writings from various places...drew in a bit. 

Monday - a bit tired, emotionally, maybe sad. I can see that things changing in my life right now are the result of my having made room/place, which doesn't mean I feel up to the tasks. I guess that's where I would tell someone else that truly knowing that you aren't up to the tasks is a positive, because 'you' can't do it effectively anyway... whatever it is.   We talked about impermanence yesterday, at HW group, and that was enormously helpful.

Also this that I read on a pab log just a moment ago:    

Stim Morane: "drop" doesn't have to mean "cease" ... it can just mean "hold in a new way"