Report 37

My choices have had to do with exposures... with simply not hiding from what comes up... trust, confidence... learning to step out of the cages and wheels when opened... which of course they already are. Staying with that.  

I've found that since the first extended breathing excercize (have returned to it for shorter periods) breathing is 'first' in a sense... I'm very concious of taking/giving, arriving/returning...settling into no-ground ground. I've considered Shunyru Suzuki's 'swinging door' image quite a bit, and ways in which we construct and deconstruct our 'self' continually.

It isn't lost on me that my reports dwell on the same themes, which does not mean that I'm just doing my own thing. There are brilliantly unfolding subtleties and distinctions, and certainly a greater sense of allowing the living being that Stim wants to hear from... that living being who appreciates fully and loves fully and makes it possible for those freeing exposures mentioned above... who knows that sadness has its work to do, and lets it... then lets it go, too.     

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