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Considering this question but unsure which angle to write from... seem to be so many.

First thoughts are an extention of renewing commitment before sleep and upon waking... a sense of ways in which one makes choices to be part of communities, for instance, and if so what kind. 'Spiritual friends' are crucial. 

One makes choices continually which might make it easier to 'keep the fires burning' so to speak, to add 'reminders' into daily path, to clear out entanglements or distractions... to constantly renew.

Ah! Reading over the description of homework, what jumps out this time is *faith* because I've had such a wrestling match with the word since I unbracketed 'spiritual life and practice' a few years ago. Someone recently spoke to me a bit about post-traumatic stress disorder, and hm, the word 'faith' was like hearing a gunshot for me, for several years.

I would think of faith as all the ways that my personal intuitions and inclinations had been quieted to a point where I could almost not hear them, trying so hard to conform... to believe what I was supposed to... the work that it took to dig out from that a bit and trust inner guidance.  

So it was funny that a few days ago when I'd run out of printer paper, I grabbed some pages I'd not looked at in forever, from a notebook. Some of them were 'faith' discussions from my first few months within PaB. I just could not detangle the word from various religious notions. And then I noticed that the word faith in the context of practice, has taken a turn toward my hearing *Confidence*, which is a sense of support and groundedness.

How funny that I didn't really notice that untangling taking place. :)