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Find the consciousness you had before you were born

This week I've been considering moments of 'first sight'... zero-ing in on a sense of immediacy and what as I'm writing now I think of as a 'bright leap' ... an essential 'yes' that just makes pure, clear, and obvious sense.

I have two recent examples:

-One in which I purposefully forgot about a 'problem' that had been going on for a while, and walking into the kitchen was struck by a 'knowing' that a certain person had already stepped in to the situation, solving it. I THEN contacted the person who indeed stepped right in.

-Another which I an artist friend passed along a link to her new work, which I clicked on 'as usual'. I generally like her work, but having known her for 20 years it is part of my routine to appreciate it in a certain way... expecting to sit with it and consider where she's at, etc. Instead I was struck immediately by tears. There was no thinking, but a spontaneously *direct* experience of the work.

I would term these things 'sightings' which bypass all ordinary reasoning and constructs and contriving... Rare, Bare, As is. I can say that these moments sometmes seem very long though they happen in an instant... in what my 11 year old son would call 'heaven time'. :)

My sense is that it is possible to 'live this way'... from that place, all the time by continually offering up all that happens... good, bad, indifferent, subtle to mundane. 

Going back to the koan discussion, this also seems to be 'the place' a koan cracks open access to, and I think it is well beyond what we typically think of as a sense of 'aha'.  We talk about ordinary mind, maybe thinking that we're after 'super' ordinary mind, but 'bare' 'naked' 'ordinary' 'natural' mind perhaps is a turn and a pointer to a deep place of rest available at all times.   

Follow the inner witness rather than the outer ones

Well today I'm thinking of outer witness as 'conventional wisdom' and 'ordinary mind'... as timelines and normal logic, 'plans', hopes, dreams, signs... what appears to be so. Also in this category would be things like "good intentions' which are ultimately ineffective and perhaps even destructive. There are many layers, more and more subtle.

Cultivating Inner witness, though terms like inner/outer do not actually apply ultimately, would be Knowing in the sense of our first slogan... operating in a way that makes way for a wisdom that bypasses scheming and self-consciousness... or at least puts it into perspective.